I have a confession to make. I am afraid to eat.
This fear has nothing to do with weight, with self image, with anything along those lines. This fear has come about from years of chronic health issues.
When doctors are unable to figure out what the underlying cause is- many as I did take the situation into their own hands and start to analyze and pay attention to every morsel of food that they put into their mouth. They hyper tune into the facts or myths (in many cases) of each foods properties. For example: Cauliflower can negatively affect thyroid health. Fact or Fiction? I don’t know… and from here on out. I DON’T CARE.
Did you hear me? I do not care. I don’t care what “doctor google” says. And let me tell you why..
Psychological Stress is a powerful thing. If I stress and fear as I take each bite of food that I’m going to have an autoimmune attack.. guess what. I’m going to have an attack. If I sit there and analyze how I feel after every bite, oh yes I’m going to find a symptom that I think I shouldn’t be having. I can’t tell you how many times I said to myself “Ugh I think that avocado made me feel crappy.. no more avocados. Just like that I would swipe out and limit what I allowed myself. Little by little what I allowed myself decreased, and the list of things that I felt safe eating could fit on a small piece of paper. Hello Unhealthy! Our bodies NEED variety.
It was mentally draining and was catching up to me physically. I felt deprived, sad, helpless and on top of everything I wasn’t getting my nutritional needs. That’ll only make any autoimmune individual MORE off balance and proned to attacks.
Food allergies and intolerances are a very real thing. But, its important that they don’t control your psyche.
Another thing to understand is that food allergies/ intolerance’s come about usually due to an imbalance in the body. Something else is off and needs tending too. Its so easy to fall into the “food is everything” trap as its usually the only thing we have full control of at home. Usually, if you are able to get under the other health issues- the food issues will settle as well.
If you are feeling chronically ill, and continue to lose more and more foods- please spend some time with a number of different doctors. There’s something deeper going on.
The past two weeks I have added back into my life probably 10 different foods. Do I feel perfect everyday? No. But I didn’t feel perfect before either, so I’m no longer pointing my finger at a green been or cauliflower as I once did. What his this brought me? I’m happier.
I’m letting go of the fear, I’m pushing away the need to analyze.
I’ll always be gluten free, and I’m sure there will always be many foods beyond that I may need to avoid. But from here on out, I will enjoy my food.
Stop Analyzing and eat. Savour each bite. You might have adverse reactions here and there- But understand that living in fear of them will only create them.
To Good Health and Fearless Eating.
ps. Please understand that I am not encouraging the consumption of foods in which you are allergic to. I’m merely talking about the negative manifestations that can come from fearing food.